i cannot take it anymore.

xmas will not be a particular happy occasion because i dont celebrate it. the thing is that i never expect this year's xmas to be rather shocking. if i know what may happen today, i will probably not come online and msn you.

out of nothing, you say i dont care and said my email sucks? if i dont even bother, i will just tell you to choose ian instead of sending you that email.

am i too generous? i let you have the total freedom to choose all your friends. i allow you to go to their house alone. i mean, is there so many guys who will place so much trust? i do.

you said that you were afraid of me. afraid of what? i never abuse you physically nor verbally. i never flirt around and i will never flirt. what else that's of me that scare you?

to be honest, i am afraid of your insecurity...

dont try to tie me down by saying that you hate me. remember that we said to each other "we started well together. if we were to end, we will end it nicely"...

we will just end it nicely.

i wont get upset for not having you before. i will be happy that i once had you.